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Ever done something you felt so silly of thereafter?

It always happen on me. There were tons of things that I did or said that made me a big fool. I felt so regretful and told myself not to let history happens again. But usually it happens again and again after that. I got to admit that I do wonder how others think of me. I hate to give people an impression of a silly girl (though it has been it seems) or getting myself way too wrong.

Adult life is complicated. The office politics is getting too harsh for a young adult like me. You may tell me off, warn me not to get involved. Yet, how could it be possible? Keeping yourself mum everyday? That is gonna cause bad breathe and you still need to communicate with colleague to get work done, isn't it? Even out of the office, social circle needs a part of your smartie brain to keep it lubricated, no? WHY? Because one need to be so aware of words used and the technique to gossip or even console others! (Girls can be so sensitive of every vocabulary you used!)

Growing up can be so weird. When I was still a kiddo, I was dying to grow up faster. Yet, when I blew those 21 candles on the strawberry short cake, how I wish I can be six, seven, eight... Times when I don't give a damn to the acne on my face, growing fat, and practically everything. All I need to do was just to go to school...How innocent and simple it used to be...

Struggling for GOLD
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愛情流沙

愛情好像流沙　
我不掙扎 隨它去吧　
我不害怕
愛情好像流沙　
心裡的牽掛 不願放下
讓我這樣吧

愛情好像流沙　
我不說話 等待黑暗　
淚能落下
愛情好像流沙　
明知該躲它 無法自拔　
是我太傻

我一步一步一步一步　
慢慢走向流沙

流沙

Friday the Thirteen

Friday the thirteen~~

The alarm clock remained silent throughout the night... bad hair day... bloated tummy... bloody headache... 'yucks' coffee... this is just the beginning of the day. What the f**k is going on?

I feel dysfunctional today. Exhausted. Painful. Every step I made was so difficult, took so much effort. A different day it seems.

Yet, think back, did I past the twenty odd years easily?

Nothing is easy...

And I just got back from a more than 3 hours long meeting with a turtle. A turtle that talks non-stop and at a high volume. Imagine this, 3 hours talks, he talked 80% of the time. He talked till lunch time and I missed lunching with Mr Bum.

What can I say other than "Today is a bloody friday the thirteen"?

Let's say some prayers... May God bless us all, may all of us be free from pain, be it the pain in your head, your ears or menstrual pain..

Lunch time is Golden
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history

Eight seconds. It merely takes eight seconds for present to be past. This is the definition of history for our brain.

It seems much longer than what we all have thought. It doesn't take millisecond to create a new history.

Is this why the emptiness that I experienced at this moment seem much longer?

Black Gold
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Bus, Bus, Bus

I truly DETEST student from this neighbourhood girl school located in Hougang.... Biggest clue>>>PL*SS... fill in the asterisk yourself!

If you are to catch the morning bus with me, you will know why. Who on Earth can be so energetic this early in the morning? These girls just can't keep their mouths shut! Hello it is 7 am, shouldn't your brain still be in the state of 'has yet to be activated'? They never show their dreamy, pissed off (because of waking up too early) face. AHA the best part is here. Their brain is activated but their movement is SLOW. They moved SLOWLY up the bus, make their way to the end of the aisle SLOWLY, and alight the bus SLOWLY too. Ey can hurry up or not? I am trying to catch the damned company bus at Pasir Ris OK! I sprained my bloody ankle 3 months ago because you turtle delaying the bus. All right, be impartial, the driver is SLOW too. Perhap it is for the safety of all commuters or maybe it is none of his business anyway whether you are late for work or not. The dominating bus service doesn't bother to provide the best service they can anyway, squeezing out reasons to raise the bus fare is more crucial. That is where their end of the year bonus comes from.

ARGHH getting too grumpy lately ...

Still I want to add one more reason to why PL*SS girls are detestable. They are illiterate it seem or blind. Because they can read the "No Food" sign right in front of them while happily throwing tibits into their big, fat mouth. Oh yes, litering the whole place ... what a perfect place to breed roaches.

Gold medal for PL*SS
(for their effort to keep themselves a nuisance)
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