The Parts and Parcels of Life

Thing happens everyday. Some new, some repeating, some minor and some major. These issue may peer through your mind and heart deeply. Others ain't that painful, yet, annoying. Just that that tiny mini ant biting on your skin.

Midnights are mostly painful to me. They are the giant ants that bite you. When they are unhappy, they bite you harder. And some time, it can swell. If it get worse, you will need to see a 'doctor' to remove that toxic fangs.

They are a problem for me and I can never escape from them.

And they are certainly the biggest 'parcel' in my life. Too much for me to bear.

ARGH~~~~

I miss you

I miss you dearly.

I still remember that moment I put my arms around you, telling you how nice the wedding would be...

You will always be on my mind, papa.

Cuttingedge

It is disturbing. It has been so disturbing that I barely got enough sleep, I could hardly sleep without awaken in middle of night.

When life seems so unbearable, we have to stay alive with the hopes that it will get better, the faith that we can live better.

We turn to prayers.

I am not spreading a religion here. But I have to admit that I get the comfort. I can feel the sincerity when they said prayers for me. And I got better sleep then after. Perhaps it is coincidental, perhaps it is just psychological... and perhaps I need more faith than ever.

Things can be very wrong at many times. The troubles that ran deep at work and the worries that ran even deeper at home...

I hope to get more peace..

By My Side

I have been really busy lately. But someone has given me all the time I need to work, staying with me till late night.

"Sorry bb... I am quite a workaholic most of the times. Just like what you said, I am stubborn. Though I know I ought to change, it has became a part of me. I like to do well for my studies. The same applies to work.. "

Last night, I fell asleep while watching Bourne Ultimatum. What happened to Bourne? I am not sure. But I do know to I was happy to see you by my side, watching me asleep..Did I snore?

Vent

Annoyed again. And I decided I need to do my usual stunt to vent it out.. BLOGGING.

NONSENSE is the word to describe how this company functions. Basically, it over-estimates its capabilities and abilities. New projects just keep coming in while manpower continues to reduce its strength. All that is done everyday is firefighting. "hey delivery date for this project is coming close, get the work done now!!" ... It is always last minute this and that.

Well. They went to Norway for a Engineering Meeting. They went happily and came back happily with pictures of Norway. Hurray! But no minutes of meeting, no briefing on what was concluded in the meeting, there is nothing. And when the deadlines come closer, they just drop one big bomb on me. What is this?

I am not the genie in the bottle. I am not super hero. HELLO~ I am just a human being.

Fire Ball Cheers
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Sick

I have been sick for a week!!!

For the last 2 years, I have never been this sick and sick with so many diseases/virus. I marked quite a lot of points on family doc's checklist...

☑ Flu
☑ Throat Inflammation
☑ Cough
☑ Phlegm
☑ Intestines Inflammation

I wanna get well soon...

I wish...

It is not easy to be Dorian Grey, isn't it?

I just can't hide my thoughts from my face. I tried. In vain.
Why should I not be truthful in the first place?
Why should I be apologetic even when I don't find myself in wrong?
Why do I have to put on a smile when I am so in foul mood?
Why am I feeling so teeny weeny?
Why can't I cry out loud in front of all?
Why am I still here?

Dorian Grey is not an answer to "why" but an escape from "why". I need a mental runaway.