If

If money drops from the sky! That would be great!

I was surviving with porridge with carrots or instant noodles for the few weeks. Trying my best to cut down the expenses. Pretty successful but it was miserable, especially during exam week.

Trying very hard to save money for the Melbourne trip. I thought I will be fine. I budgeted and I figure out that I should be able to make it with the allowance. But my cousin is cutting the allowance next month by AUD200 to AUD800. Because of some unforseen reason.

I rang my family for help. I figure out this is the only way out with the situation that I am facing. Not from my dad, I asked to borrow from my eldest sister. She did agree, but with naggings. I know her difficulties too. She don't earn alot but she contributed a fair bits to the family. I just can't ask from dad. He is paying for those expenses in hospital. Last week, he paid $700 cash for his CT Scan. And I felt so sorry for him. He paid the expenses on his own, and no one went to hospital with him.

I was chatting with Mr Leow the other night. I have been telling him how miserable I am feeling. He commented that my siblings don't seem to be taking good care of my dad. And I can't deny that I do have this feeling inside me. After all that have happened, my second sister still went to Japan for two weeks. And ironically, while she was enjoying herself, I was eating porridge with carrots.

I think my little sisters did the best. She took good care of my dad. Being the youngest, yet fearless to clean the wound and the faeces bag for my dad.

I knew my eldest sister accompanied dad to hospital. Financially, she has been contributing to the family. I won't blame her being naggy when i asked to borrow money from her. I do understand her difficulties too. But then I wonder if she did pay for some medical fees for dad or mum.

Before I came over, during the mishap, I paid a fair bits on those specialist consultation. But I guess they won't know, I won't tell them either. I just hope they won't let the ill one pays the medical fees. How miserable? BUT, a probability of 75% tells me that, that might be over their dead body. I know my mum paid for her regular check up if they accompanied her. They don't dig their pocket.

WHAT IS GOING ON WITH THESE WORLD?

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